It's been twenty years.

It's been twenty years today since my dad's mom was murdered by my dad's father.

It's been twenty years since my dad's father kidnapped my dad's sister and abandoned my dad.

It's been twenty years since my dad  wasn't depressed.

It's been more twenty years that he hasn't been able to tell her how much he loved her.

Could you imagine not being able to say goodnight to your mom? Or that you love her?

Could you imagine having your mom being murdered in a slow and painful death as you had to watch?

Could you imagine not being able to help her?

Could you imagine the painful feeling that you know that the murder is out there...

... and he has no remorse. That that man gets to be happy while you slowly die inside?

That the man who abused you all of your life, treated you like shit every day, and murdered your mom get's to be happy?

The man who has also made death treats to you and your family.

The man who makes you skin crawl when you hear his name.

Could you imagine having a chance that you might die today and there's nothing that you can do about it?

No? Oh, well I can. So can my dad and the  rest of my family.

It's been twenty years.

And today, is not going to be a good day.


Wishing for only the best today.

R.I.P Victoria. <3

Lalalalala... Gerald and misunderstandings... Silly friends. (:

Just so that it's clear, my previous blog post about moment ruiners and stage kissing was not about my friend, "Phil".

That would have just been awkward.

It was a dude, that I'm going to call Gerald from now on. :D

Speaking of him, I'm not even sure that I like Gerald. He can be mean and most of the time it's like I'm not even there to him... *sigh* Oh well. I'll keep my distance. I guess if he liked me, he'd talk to me more often, yeah?
That New years conversation was like, our first actual talk together.

He's in a different grade than me. It's hard liking someone from a different grade, because you don't see them as much.

Well, if anything happens with Gerald, I'll let you guys know! (;

Bye bye!!! <3

Strange feelings.

Do you ever get that feeling that someone is watching you?

... Seeing everything that you do, and everywhere you go? Knowing everything about you?

I don't like it.

I feel stalked.

I don't want to be stalked.

........ O.o

Yep. Yep. Yep. No stalkers for me, please!

Moment ruiners make me want a time machine. -_-

Lalalalala... SO! After school, I was talking to a boy that I like (not THE boy, but a boy who I might like. maybe.) after school. He told me a story about this new years party that he was at that I promised that I wouldn't share. Anyway, the story involved stage kissing. I  asked what that was, and as he was about to show me... SUDDENLY... STUPID PEOPLE BURST IN THE AREA WHERE WE WERE AND THEY RUINED IT. Gah!!!! T_T

I need a time machine to go back and time and remove stupid people from that moment.

I looked online later to see what stage kissing was, and it's when you get really close to someone, look like you going to kiss, but keep a small distance away from you and the other person so that the audience thinks that you kissed.

HOW CUTE WOULD THAT HAVE BEEN????

Well. I'll uh... just be here... wishing to go back in time... Bye bye.

OH BOY, YOU GUYS! I HOPE THAT I MAKE A BLOG TOOOODAAAAAAAY!

Well, today was certainly interesting.

It all started with a look... then another look... then a push... then a "I'MMA PRACTICALLY SIT ON YOUUUUU!!!!"...

I was sitting in my favorite teacher's room fourth period typing up this thing when all of a sudden, my best guy friend whom I also like comes by. He puts his hand on my chair, then he's just staring at me. So I look at him very confused, and he looks away. So, I go back to typing and he does it again. I'm thinking," Okaaay? What do you want???". I look at him and again he looks away. I go back to typing when he pushes me, then pretends as if he never did. I push him back and I roll my eyes as he practically lays on the whole right side of me. Later he just goes and flirts with the girl he likes... Confusing, yes? ...boys. *le sigh*

In lunch, I was playing with a kiwi. I decided that it would be a good idea to squeeze it from a bag like icing. HAHAHAHA... Guess what plan backfired? Literally. It backfired right onto my shirt. I needed new clothes, and fast. My best friend said that she had a shirt that I could borrow in her locker. As we ask to go to her locker to get me her shirt, my teacher (who's epic by the way) decided to tell us how much her husband loves kiwi and that she packed him two for lunch. It was actually rather funny. On our way to her locker, we started to talk about all of the fun adventures that we've been through together. Our first one was in fifth grade, when I had red lipstick all over my hands that wouldn't come off and we were trying to erase it in math class. Ah... It feels just like yesterday.
Anyway, I ended up getting a shirt from my other friend who is AMAZING! <3

In History class, I was late and I walked in to find the guy that I like and one of my other good friends dressed as colonial people... strange. Apparently, they had "colonial swag". Awesome! hahahah!!!

In math we just shared strange stories. It was very fun, but I didn't get to tell my story about Mrs. Smith, the midget *female dog* from hell. Maybe I'll tell you that story some other time.

HOMEROOM... -_-
My homeroom teacher (whom is also my science teacher) says that he did not receive a paper that I had Emailed him two weeks ago. As I pull up my Email, and show him that I DID show it to him he proceeds to arrogantly tell me basically that I'm lying. So, I'm sitting in my seat freaking out about what the heck I'm going to do, now... when miraculously he found it. JOY. >.<

He only had to OPEN HIS EYES to find it... Gosh.

Play practice was horrible.

Now I'm home, sleepy, and hungry. Ta ta for now! <3

Cookies.

All I wanted was some cookies...

I still want cookies...

nom nom nom...

I'm fat. :P hahahahaha!

Maybe if I ask, I shall receive. (;

:D

Smiling is my favorite.

:P Elf quote there, guys. I love that movie.

ANYWHO... I'm in a fabulous mood. I feel like defying gravity. I think I'lllll trrrrrryyyyyyyy DEFYING GRAVITY! <3
Today and tomorrow are going to be awesome. Today, I'm going to my dad's comedy show at 9pm, but we're going out to dinner first. I possibly might get to see what my mean bestfriend is making me wait for... apparently I'll like it. hmm... ANTICIPATION IS RUNNING THROUGH MY  VEINS!!! <3

Tomorrow, I'm going to the eye doctor and I'm possibly getting new glasses. <3 YAY!

I haven't been able to see correctly for about 3 months now... O.o

I cant wait! Maybe I'll post pictures?

Well, good day to you all!